Decisions

I am trying to figure out if I want to stay here in NC for the pregnancy so that the baby can be born here & family will get to see it that otherwise wouldn't, OR do I want to move to TX when Carlos does @ the end of June & have the baby there. I really don't want to go through the riga-ma-row of trying to find a Dr & hospital that will conform to my needs/wants of a birthing plan. I also happen to have a Dr that believes in Progesterone & a lot of them don't. I strongly believe that I would've lost the baby had I not gotten on the pills when I did, so I want a Dr that will continue to prescribe me those for as long as I need them. I really am torn b/t my birthing plan/family, and being with Carlos. It's mainly some stuff that has just surfaced in the past week that is making me want to go with him. I am not going to mention anything on here, or anywhere, because he isn't ready for people to know yet though. I am extremely worried, and I wish I could talk about it, just to get it out of my system. I know I don't need to stress over it, but it's hard. It could be nothing, a fluke, or something random, but it could be something horrible also. I'm praying for a fluke. Trying to stay positive. It's the best I can do. That, and act like it's all ok when I'm around/talking to him, but I'm crying until I puke when he isn't near. :-/ It's in God's hands, that's all I can say about it, but sometimes I wish I had a cure for everything.