I know that I haven't updated this as often as I was meaning to but...... here goes a new one :-)
I ended up moving back in with my mom after a fainting spell in the post office. People were asking me who they could call to come pick me up, and all I could say was no one. Carlos was in training during that time, and as far as I knew couldn't answer his phone. After nearly 2 weeks of crying myself to sleep from depression that I could feel myself slipping farther and farther into, Carlos called my mom and talked to her. I had been talking to her also, and we all made the decision for her to come get me and ride back with me. I've have been put on Zoloft to help with the depression. Yes this is safe to take while pregnant. Of course nothing can be done for the hot flashes that are causing my faint spells. I was told that they will continue while I am breastfeeding. :-(
I started my childbirth classes a few weeks ago. They are very different from what I was expecting. Since I am going to the ones they have at the hospital I expected it to be all about breathing to ignore the pain and taking pain meds no matter what. I was completely floored when they were talking about natural childbirth, and that the nurses there are all for it. I was also amazed to find out that they will let you labor and birth in any position you like so long as there aren't complications. They have this bar that they can put on the bed so that you can get up in a squatting position. It's really cool. They also, well I don't want to say push b/c they tell you that it's ok if you don't, but tell us that it's best to breastfeed. I am so glad that they are such advocates for breastfeeding and even natural childbirth. They just explain that complications can happen, and that you should always keep your options open. I feel so blessed to live near a hospital with a great labor and delivery section! They even offer water births. THOUGH in the past 7 years there has only been ONE water birth. I've been told that it will depend on the Dr. that ends up being with me during the birth as to whether or not I will have that option open to me.
On an unrelated note. I ask for everyones prayers, please, for my family. We had a sudden death Monday night. My cousin, my moms nephew, was found dead by his sister. He lived behind my mom and me. He was only 35, and has 2 daughters ages 13 and 10. The initial autopsy is showing that it was heart failure. He was a great dad, musician, and person. He will be greatly missed. RIP Mark Hayes <3
